park with some crowds walking, chatting and playing.
A park with some lovers or couples dating.
A park with some families having their great time.
This is a park where our story starts, Park Never-land.
A girl has been waiting at center in Never-land for a guy to meet her while the guy is hiding and observe her at far. The girl wanted to see the guy for very long time while the guy keep avoid her. She always want to ask the guy for the reason he hide from her, but she doesn't has a chance to do so.
The girl's name is Lydia, she work as a writer at NEXUS newspaper. She also involve in photography for her hobby. Eventually she also join some photography competition for interest. Every time she join the competition, she also get placed as 1st runner up. She feel very interest and curious toward to the champion as he doesn't show up for award ceremony. The champion always send someone to collect for him. Everything that she know about the champion are his masterpiece and his name, Matthew.
Actually, Matthew and Lydia already known each other. Just that Lydia still haven't figure out the Matthew she know is the Matthew was she looking for. Matthew actually working as office boy at NEXUS newspaper too, but his actual identity is the owner of NEXUS newspaper. He also share the same hobby with Lydia which is photography. However, only certain peoples know about Matthew actual identity.
Matthew start photography since young when he travel with his father for photo shooting. He is talented as his father, a famous photographer. He learn a lot from his father and start shooting with his father after 2 year of travel with him. Many professional photographer also amazed by Matthew talent after he held his first photo gallery presentation at 12. Photographer Matthew, a name always heard in photography field.
After Matthew's father passed away, he inherit his father business at age of 18.
With his capabilities in business management, he able to keep his father's business running well and continue his photography as he travel around the world. For a very fine day while Matthew on his way to the office, he met Lydia at the lobby. She is very nervous as she seems to interview for her very first job. Matthew have no idea why she caught his attention, so he decide to observe her from a distance.
From what Matthew has observed, she just an originally girl that can be found anywhere. But something is different among her and other girls, she is very charming and easy to caught other attention. Just when Matthew want to confront with her, she went into a lift. So Matthew thought he will never saw such a charming girl anymore, however fate takes place in their life as Matthew saw her again in NEXUS. After she finish her interview, then she seems in hurry and rush out from NEXUS. Matthew has completely no chance for asking for her name, but he found her name in her resume. Lydia, is her name.
Two complete strangers and one connection point which makes their story completely different. During a daily meeting between Matthew and his business core managers, there is an issue raise up for hiring a new writer for special reporting in their newspaper, among so many candidates, Matthew decide to choose Lydia for their newspaper as a new writer. And so, this decision had change Lydia's life completely. In order for Matthew understand more about his employees thought, he often work as office boy in his office and usually help his company to take some commercial shooting.
As for Lydia, her job is to write about photography in NEXUS. Since she like photography, so she found no difficulties for interview some professional photographer and give some comment on certain picture. As soon as NEXUS release her post in their paper, it receive many good comment and increases NEXUS reader. Those responds were expected by Matthew. Among so many photographer, she wanted to interview Matthew, but she never get a chance to do so as Matthew is very low profile.
She try to get any information about Matthew, but since he working with her, he easily avoid her as he wanted to keep low profile. But Lydia did not force her way for interview Matthew, instead she doing her task usually and try to track Matthew information when she finish her task. From what Matthew had observe about Lydia, he found that she is very respondsible for her job, has great sense in photography, great charisma. No matter how Matthew observe, she seems perfect for his ideal life partner.
One day, after Lydia finish one of the interviews. She is tired and rest at a park. Matthew pass by after his shooting and sense a great image about Lydia. So he taken her picture without her notice. A sunset setting, the orange but gold light reflect on her fair skin, the shadow of her body surround by the light of sunset. Just by the second Matthew takes the picture, bird fly around the sky. A beautiful picture have taken by Matthew again.
As usual, Lydia will participate in every photography competition. She is supprise about receiving a call for great model award notice in her photography competition. She does win a 1st runner-up award in the competition, but she still get an extra award for modeling. So she went and notice the picture taken by Matthew had won the champion and let Lydia to receive a special award. During the award ceremony, she receive Matthew's email as a return for modeling in his picture.
They communicate via email, Lydia always tell him about her interview with who while Matthew will teach Lydia more about photography. Starting with formal email and slowly end up as close friend based email. Their chatting topic is not limited to photography but are everything about them. Whenever Lydia in trouble, Matthew will try to cover her up, but he never shown up in front of Lydia. Both of them were very close to each other yet very far. Just every moment Lydia need him, his help will reach Lydia, but Lydia unable to reach Matthew when she want to.
All peoples around them will notice their changes. They look more happy and almost like honeymoon with their partner. But they did not mention they were in a relationship. Actually, both of them never start a relationship at all. But Lydia notice this changes, so she ask Matthew to have a face-to-face meeting. Matthew is very happy about this request, but just when Matthew wanted to reply the message, he just suddenly cannot see a single thing in front of him. After a while, he able to see again.
So Matthew decide to do a full body checkup in his friend's clinic and get a unexpected result on his report. Matthew has a small cancer in his brain and at his sight nerve. His friend explain clearly to Matthew about his cancer and how dangerous of it. Actually, the cancer is very small and able to cure after a surgery but it is at Matthew sight nerve. so the risk will be very high, the worst result will cause Matthew unable to see anymore.
After receive this bad news, Matthew reject Lydia request and annouce to public about his resignation as a photographer. Many comment flood to NEXUS for requesting Matthew's interview about his announcement. So NEXUS assign Lydia to search for Matthew for interview. Ever since Matthew reject Lydia for meeting her, Matthew never reply Lydia's email. What he did is to receive the email and back her up quietly.
Lydia sent a lot of email to Matthew, she know he had read all of them. So she sent an email to Matthew to meet up on her birthday at the park where he capture her picture, the starting point of all, park Never-land.
Lydia waiting at the park, while Matthew watching her from far. They both wanted to see each other, but Matthew do not want to hurt Lydia. After a hour waiting, there is a group of youngster surround Lydia. Matthew saw this, so he rush to save Lydia. Just before youngster wanted to say something, a fist hit on their face by Matthew. So Matthew had chase them out. Lydia was shocked when Matthew explain his true identity to Lydia. After Matthew finish explain his true identity, he faint. Lydia carry him in her arm and call for ambulance.
Everything had explained to Lydia during Matthew's faint. By the time Matthew woke up, he saw Lydia is beside him and holding his hand. Before Matthew say anything, Lydia just tell him to do the surgery.
"To me, Your life is more important than everything else. If you unable to see, I will be your eye. If you unable to move, I will be your leg. If you unable to take, I will be your hand. So, just do the surgery."
Matthew have nothing else to say, he clearly understand what Lydia just say. So he decide to have the surgery.
Ever since the surgery end, no one know where Matthew and Lydia went. There are many rumor about them, some says Matthew unable to see, some says Matthew had passed away, some say they having a new life at Hawaii, some say they live separately in Japan. No matter what rumors have mention about them, none of them were true. As the fact was they live happily and doing everything they like regardless what happen to Matthew, Lydia also at his side for everything.
2010年6月26日星期六
2010年6月14日星期一
Lyric 2: 想念。看见
我很想念，却看不见，
徘徊在回忆之间。
我停留，你往前，
我看不见你双眼，
视线没了交流，
你在我的对面，
对话却被拒绝。
其实我知道我们没结果，
其实我知道你不爱我，
你只不过想要安慰我，
却深深伤害我。
与你的距离，
看似接近却遥远，
此时此刻想轻抚你脸。
我看不见
围墙在我们之间，
所有举动全被拒绝。
其实你知道你非真心爱我，
其实你知道我们没对错，
只能当一切是我错过，
一次让你真心爱我，
你不必难过。
其实我知道我们没承诺，
其实我知道你没爱我，
你善良的安慰，
成了我流血的心。
我不能接受，
让你因我伤心，
决定了，
把幸福归还于你的手心。
徘徊在回忆之间。
我停留，你往前，
我看不见你双眼，
视线没了交流，
你在我的对面，
对话却被拒绝。
其实我知道我们没结果，
其实我知道你不爱我，
你只不过想要安慰我，
却深深伤害我。
与你的距离，
看似接近却遥远，
此时此刻想轻抚你脸。
我看不见
围墙在我们之间，
所有举动全被拒绝。
其实你知道你非真心爱我，
其实你知道我们没对错，
只能当一切是我错过，
一次让你真心爱我，
你不必难过。
其实我知道我们没承诺，
其实我知道你没爱我，
你善良的安慰，
成了我流血的心。
我不能接受，
让你因我伤心，
决定了，
把幸福归还于你的手心。
Lyric 1: one chance
下着雨的那一天，
你出现在我面前，
泪水汪汪在你眼，
手牵手只是对我的亏欠。
你不大愿意，
但是还在这里，
很想问你，
会不会对我回心转意。
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。
Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
你的幸福就是我的快乐，
从没对你说过我爱你，
不想你有负担，
你当我还是朋友。
你现在的伤心，
停留在我脑海里，
当初我的放弃，
让你选择一个伤害你的爱情.
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。
Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
You never be alone
Never alone again
As I will continue guide you to the end
Give me another chance
To prove how much I love you
I promise that never hurt you.
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。
Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
你出现在我面前，
泪水汪汪在你眼，
手牵手只是对我的亏欠。
你不大愿意，
但是还在这里，
很想问你，
会不会对我回心转意。
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。
Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
你的幸福就是我的快乐，
从没对你说过我爱你，
不想你有负担，
你当我还是朋友。
你现在的伤心，
停留在我脑海里，
当初我的放弃，
让你选择一个伤害你的爱情.
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。
Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
You never be alone
Never alone again
As I will continue guide you to the end
Give me another chance
To prove how much I love you
I promise that never hurt you.
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。
Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
One Sided Love
A girl receives a diary of a guy who loves her from someone……………….
26 of May 2008
…. This year….. College has a lot of new comers. As I processing to my new study environment, my new course filled by a lot familiar faces as well as those new faces. I’m taking a mixture of technical and also business environment type of courses, and I never knew that I would really stuck into this relation which refer as one-sided by others.
27 of May 2008
I am the guy who easily likes someone, so as I thought, like is not really mean love, so I didn’t really consider how to chase a girl or really think about what is the feeling of loving someone so blindly. The first day of my study…… is really blur to me, since I didn’t really have my mood setting to study. I met her on the first day, which I didn’t really pay attention to her. As I just thought, she just a normal girl to me. But fates twist this fact upside down, and slowly, this girl really takes important roles in my heart without giving me a notice.
28 of May 2008
Our first encounter is when we having a course discussion of picking a course rep. At that moment, my world starts fill me up with many colors. In my first impression of her, will be a cheerful girl, having a very cute personality. I really can’t stop myself of teasing her very much, since every times she gives me some laughable “feed back”. In my view, she is very colorful, whereby she is too colorful to me, a guy that is very grey in his mind.
1 of June 2008
She really does not force people for following her way of doing. I also very impress in her way of doing things. In other word, she is very responsible. But somehow she keeps getting more burdens on her shoulder. The most forceful encounter between us will be I putting her into our courses treasurer position. Even she refuse at the first place, however I and her friends manage to put her in it. But the result turns out fine.
10 of June 2008
It been a while that we in the same tutorial class. I have tried to participate in part of her life, but it turns that it too much for me. She is really a smart girl, a good chef also and she also very “social able” with others. But the funniest part I found about her is, she really can eat a lot of snack but won’t get fat. Talking to her make me feel look like an idiot. Since I keep do something funny like telling cold joke in the middle of a conversation. But at this moment, I really do want to say to her, “I like you”.
17 of June 2008
This just a beginning of the semester, as a senior student of this college, I been a navigator of college for them. I have shown them all places that we might go for our course study, practical as well as our tutorial. I do feel nice when I able to help her in something, even it is something that is very small. Every times that you call me for help, you will be my top priority of all my tasks. “I’m always available when you need me.”
23 of June 2008
Even I just able to be with her in college, but I really try to make it that I can be with her anytime. Just that she no need my protection, as she can really take good care of herself which make me feel pleased about her safety. She stays in a rented hostel with her friends. She also has her own car, so transport to college is not an issue for her.
“You have every thing that you needed, do you still need me?”
14 of July 2008
Today I go buy present with other for the upcoming birthday for 3 person. When I walk into living cabin, I’m full of idea of getting those 3 their present. The moment I picking the present, I start to think about you. The present I choose slowly influence by your image. Suddenly I spaced out just because I keep thinking about you.
“At this moment, what are you doing?”
19 of July 2008
today is the day that we organize the birthday party for them in red box plus in pavilion. You say you didn’t expect me like to sing. I like to sing because you are there. I always want to train myself to sing well in love song. So can confess to you in a romantic way but it is a dream that cannot come true. You sing very well, but I can’t sing with you.
“Your voice is an angel voice from the heaven to give me hope and courage to live on”
15 of August 2008
A month before our final exam, you looks very stress and work very hard in it. I feel heart pain when I see you so stress. But I can’t help you in your study, because I didn’t study for my final exam. Whenever you ask me about the exam, I keep telling you the truth but you just don’t believe in me.
“I giving you the truth, but you choose not to believe me, this hurts me a lot”
9 of September 2008
today is my birthday. College gives me a very big present… which is 2 final exam English papers. When she wish me happy birthday, I really feel that I am the luckiest guy in the world even she didn’t prepare me any gift. This is the first time I be grateful that I able to live for so long. Among all people’s birthday wish, I still remember very clearly the tone, the way and also her face expression when wishing me “happy birthday”. However I didn’t give her my respond in a good way…. I just like keep hiding from her, as like she is too bright too shining for me.
“Do you know that you really are the one I really care?”
10 of October 2008
it been a month since I last seen you in college. Now you look like a bit strange to me, and I finally know the reason behind it. You have found yourself a bf to love. When I found out this fact, I feel sad but in other ways, I truthfully wish you happy with your bf.
“No matter you have bf or not, I will always wanted you to be the happiest woman in this world”
24 of October 2008
I successfully bid a huge teddy bear just for RM85. But out of my mind, I straight think I get it just for her birthday on next week, 1st of November. I do not have enough courage to carry that bear to her by my own, so I ask my ex course mate to help me. But he set me up and gives a big surprise for her and also for me. All of my classmate say that the bear is look almost like me. Got one of the guy says that I giving that bear to her because I want to give myself to her as present. I do not know why I give her, but I know I must give her the present.
“I cannot always be with you, but I hope the bear I give you will replace me to stay with you”
1 of November 2008
today is the exact day of her birthday. I whole day have no mood to study my workshop because I feel wanted to go Genting with her and her friends. But however I didn’t go because I do not have enough courage to face her and her bf. I really scare that I cannot control myself. So I didn’t go to Genting in the end.
“Please forgive my cowardliness because I just can’t face you normally”
3 of November 2008
Today, her friend told me that because of me, she cried at night. So I feel guilty and go buy gift for her. I go get a pretty box and a set of 600 papers that used to fold paper swam. It is a difficult for me since the paper is small sized paper. So I rush and rush to complete the 100 paper swam. I even sleep very late for it. Even I caught a cold due to the heavy rain today.
“May those swam I make for you will bring you happiness”
4 of November 2008
after my long hard work of preparing her gift for begging her forgiveness. I only know that is just a prank from her friend. However I still give her the gift. Because the gift I give her is really want her to be happy. No matter she got bf or not.
“What I done is just hope you can be more happy than usual.”
In the end of the diary, it wrote
“I do not know when I started to love you, but I really love you. I LOVE YOU.”
The girl can’t stop her tears dropping out from her eyes.
26 of May 2008
…. This year….. College has a lot of new comers. As I processing to my new study environment, my new course filled by a lot familiar faces as well as those new faces. I’m taking a mixture of technical and also business environment type of courses, and I never knew that I would really stuck into this relation which refer as one-sided by others.
27 of May 2008
I am the guy who easily likes someone, so as I thought, like is not really mean love, so I didn’t really consider how to chase a girl or really think about what is the feeling of loving someone so blindly. The first day of my study…… is really blur to me, since I didn’t really have my mood setting to study. I met her on the first day, which I didn’t really pay attention to her. As I just thought, she just a normal girl to me. But fates twist this fact upside down, and slowly, this girl really takes important roles in my heart without giving me a notice.
28 of May 2008
Our first encounter is when we having a course discussion of picking a course rep. At that moment, my world starts fill me up with many colors. In my first impression of her, will be a cheerful girl, having a very cute personality. I really can’t stop myself of teasing her very much, since every times she gives me some laughable “feed back”. In my view, she is very colorful, whereby she is too colorful to me, a guy that is very grey in his mind.
1 of June 2008
She really does not force people for following her way of doing. I also very impress in her way of doing things. In other word, she is very responsible. But somehow she keeps getting more burdens on her shoulder. The most forceful encounter between us will be I putting her into our courses treasurer position. Even she refuse at the first place, however I and her friends manage to put her in it. But the result turns out fine.
10 of June 2008
It been a while that we in the same tutorial class. I have tried to participate in part of her life, but it turns that it too much for me. She is really a smart girl, a good chef also and she also very “social able” with others. But the funniest part I found about her is, she really can eat a lot of snack but won’t get fat. Talking to her make me feel look like an idiot. Since I keep do something funny like telling cold joke in the middle of a conversation. But at this moment, I really do want to say to her, “I like you”.
17 of June 2008
This just a beginning of the semester, as a senior student of this college, I been a navigator of college for them. I have shown them all places that we might go for our course study, practical as well as our tutorial. I do feel nice when I able to help her in something, even it is something that is very small. Every times that you call me for help, you will be my top priority of all my tasks. “I’m always available when you need me.”
23 of June 2008
Even I just able to be with her in college, but I really try to make it that I can be with her anytime. Just that she no need my protection, as she can really take good care of herself which make me feel pleased about her safety. She stays in a rented hostel with her friends. She also has her own car, so transport to college is not an issue for her.
“You have every thing that you needed, do you still need me?”
14 of July 2008
Today I go buy present with other for the upcoming birthday for 3 person. When I walk into living cabin, I’m full of idea of getting those 3 their present. The moment I picking the present, I start to think about you. The present I choose slowly influence by your image. Suddenly I spaced out just because I keep thinking about you.
“At this moment, what are you doing?”
19 of July 2008
today is the day that we organize the birthday party for them in red box plus in pavilion. You say you didn’t expect me like to sing. I like to sing because you are there. I always want to train myself to sing well in love song. So can confess to you in a romantic way but it is a dream that cannot come true. You sing very well, but I can’t sing with you.
“Your voice is an angel voice from the heaven to give me hope and courage to live on”
15 of August 2008
A month before our final exam, you looks very stress and work very hard in it. I feel heart pain when I see you so stress. But I can’t help you in your study, because I didn’t study for my final exam. Whenever you ask me about the exam, I keep telling you the truth but you just don’t believe in me.
“I giving you the truth, but you choose not to believe me, this hurts me a lot”
9 of September 2008
today is my birthday. College gives me a very big present… which is 2 final exam English papers. When she wish me happy birthday, I really feel that I am the luckiest guy in the world even she didn’t prepare me any gift. This is the first time I be grateful that I able to live for so long. Among all people’s birthday wish, I still remember very clearly the tone, the way and also her face expression when wishing me “happy birthday”. However I didn’t give her my respond in a good way…. I just like keep hiding from her, as like she is too bright too shining for me.
“Do you know that you really are the one I really care?”
10 of October 2008
it been a month since I last seen you in college. Now you look like a bit strange to me, and I finally know the reason behind it. You have found yourself a bf to love. When I found out this fact, I feel sad but in other ways, I truthfully wish you happy with your bf.
“No matter you have bf or not, I will always wanted you to be the happiest woman in this world”
24 of October 2008
I successfully bid a huge teddy bear just for RM85. But out of my mind, I straight think I get it just for her birthday on next week, 1st of November. I do not have enough courage to carry that bear to her by my own, so I ask my ex course mate to help me. But he set me up and gives a big surprise for her and also for me. All of my classmate say that the bear is look almost like me. Got one of the guy says that I giving that bear to her because I want to give myself to her as present. I do not know why I give her, but I know I must give her the present.
“I cannot always be with you, but I hope the bear I give you will replace me to stay with you”
1 of November 2008
today is the exact day of her birthday. I whole day have no mood to study my workshop because I feel wanted to go Genting with her and her friends. But however I didn’t go because I do not have enough courage to face her and her bf. I really scare that I cannot control myself. So I didn’t go to Genting in the end.
“Please forgive my cowardliness because I just can’t face you normally”
3 of November 2008
Today, her friend told me that because of me, she cried at night. So I feel guilty and go buy gift for her. I go get a pretty box and a set of 600 papers that used to fold paper swam. It is a difficult for me since the paper is small sized paper. So I rush and rush to complete the 100 paper swam. I even sleep very late for it. Even I caught a cold due to the heavy rain today.
“May those swam I make for you will bring you happiness”
4 of November 2008
after my long hard work of preparing her gift for begging her forgiveness. I only know that is just a prank from her friend. However I still give her the gift. Because the gift I give her is really want her to be happy. No matter she got bf or not.
“What I done is just hope you can be more happy than usual.”
In the end of the diary, it wrote
“I do not know when I started to love you, but I really love you. I LOVE YOU.”
The girl can’t stop her tears dropping out from her eyes.
Dance?
I like to dance, but I do not know how to dance;
I know how to dance, but I do not like to dance.
People who like to dance but do not know how to dance will often wandering in the dancing game world to continue enjoy dancing.
People who know how to dance but do not like to dance will often dance well in real life but hate to join in dancing game.
I am the 1st type of people, while the girl I like is the 2nd type of people. I first meet her is on a dancing performance. Her dancing and steps make a very huge impact to my mind which I can’t stop myself from getting her contact. Even she doesn’t willing to give at first, but in the end she also gives her contact to me after a few times of pursuing.
I am a super hot fan for those dancing like hip hop, locking, pop ping, reggae and also those stunt. For her, she just dance for her need, she doesn’t like to dance. Or I can say she just do not enjoy dancing. She is a very pretty girl, but her still single. I always ask her why she still single till now while she actually very nice. She just replies me “I believe in fate, if I meet someone who love me and I love him then I will couple with him no matter who is he”. I feel shocked about the answer, if that guy already married, then she will suffer. I really do not want to see this happen. Believe or not, she can cook better than me even she doesn’t cook very often. Maybe this is what we call talent.
Since she is very good in dance, I ask her for tutor me in dance. Of cause, I have to pay tutor fee for her. Maybe I just too clumsy for dance, I learn for few months but I still do not have any progressive improvement in my dance, but she still willing patiently teaches me in dance. “Step by step, slowly move here…..” her teaching keep repeat in my mind which finally make me realize that I not just admire her for her dancing technique but also I love her. That day makes me realize she having the same feeling towards me. On that day, while she teaching me how to dance, I get hurt seriously while I practicing one of the stunts which very serious till I blend my neck 90 degree. She suddenly lost her calm side and keep look for help blindly.
In the end, I had been sent for hospitality for a few months. She comes by everyday with flower and fruits. During this period of hospitality, I finally know why she hates dancing so much. Her father is a profession dancer who always has to perform everywhere. Similar with her mother, she also has to perform with her father. This makes her feel no family love at all. The worst is her parents have a flight accident while going for performance in England. This makes her hate the dancing which let her feel no family love and takes her parents away from her.
Then I find a chance to ask her about what is the exact feeling her holding toward me.
She says this to me, “When I see you get hurt while practicing the stunt, I feel exactly the feeling that I lost my parents because of dance.” At this moment, she in my eyes is just a normal girl. She turns her back on me. I just out of my mind and take my 1st step to hug her with my arm and telling her, “I will not let you be alone again; not even the dancing can makes me let you go away from me”. A long hug till makes us forget all other things include of times.
After the hug, I kiss her on her lips. It is a deep and long kiss until the nurse comes in and she push me back and run off. I want to chase her but due to my current status, the nurse and other hospital staffs stop me from chasing her. After that day, she didn’t come to visit me at all, but when I went to garden for a walk, I feel got someone watching me from a far place. However I feel this feeling is very familiar, whenever I looked back, the feeling is gone.
Until the day that I finally full cure from the hurt, I saw she is waiting for me at the entrance of the hospital. I walk slowly to her as she also does the same. I start to ask her question.
“Are you the one who keep watching me from far place?”
“Yes…..”
“Why you don’t come to visit me directly?”
“I scare……”
“You scare about what?”
“I scare that day you just doing that to me without really love me.”
“You know the answer very well yourself; you just do not admit it”
“I know what…. I….”
I, without letting her to finish her sentence, have actually kissed her to show my very true feeling toward her. And she hug me back as the answer she gives me back which actually means she accept me.
After that day, we started our couple life; we try to get as happy as we can everyday since we cannot predict what will happen. As long we can make as much memory with each other, we are the happiest people in this world.
The END!!
I know how to dance, but I do not like to dance.
People who like to dance but do not know how to dance will often wandering in the dancing game world to continue enjoy dancing.
People who know how to dance but do not like to dance will often dance well in real life but hate to join in dancing game.
I am the 1st type of people, while the girl I like is the 2nd type of people. I first meet her is on a dancing performance. Her dancing and steps make a very huge impact to my mind which I can’t stop myself from getting her contact. Even she doesn’t willing to give at first, but in the end she also gives her contact to me after a few times of pursuing.
I am a super hot fan for those dancing like hip hop, locking, pop ping, reggae and also those stunt. For her, she just dance for her need, she doesn’t like to dance. Or I can say she just do not enjoy dancing. She is a very pretty girl, but her still single. I always ask her why she still single till now while she actually very nice. She just replies me “I believe in fate, if I meet someone who love me and I love him then I will couple with him no matter who is he”. I feel shocked about the answer, if that guy already married, then she will suffer. I really do not want to see this happen. Believe or not, she can cook better than me even she doesn’t cook very often. Maybe this is what we call talent.
Since she is very good in dance, I ask her for tutor me in dance. Of cause, I have to pay tutor fee for her. Maybe I just too clumsy for dance, I learn for few months but I still do not have any progressive improvement in my dance, but she still willing patiently teaches me in dance. “Step by step, slowly move here…..” her teaching keep repeat in my mind which finally make me realize that I not just admire her for her dancing technique but also I love her. That day makes me realize she having the same feeling towards me. On that day, while she teaching me how to dance, I get hurt seriously while I practicing one of the stunts which very serious till I blend my neck 90 degree. She suddenly lost her calm side and keep look for help blindly.
In the end, I had been sent for hospitality for a few months. She comes by everyday with flower and fruits. During this period of hospitality, I finally know why she hates dancing so much. Her father is a profession dancer who always has to perform everywhere. Similar with her mother, she also has to perform with her father. This makes her feel no family love at all. The worst is her parents have a flight accident while going for performance in England. This makes her hate the dancing which let her feel no family love and takes her parents away from her.
Then I find a chance to ask her about what is the exact feeling her holding toward me.
She says this to me, “When I see you get hurt while practicing the stunt, I feel exactly the feeling that I lost my parents because of dance.” At this moment, she in my eyes is just a normal girl. She turns her back on me. I just out of my mind and take my 1st step to hug her with my arm and telling her, “I will not let you be alone again; not even the dancing can makes me let you go away from me”. A long hug till makes us forget all other things include of times.
After the hug, I kiss her on her lips. It is a deep and long kiss until the nurse comes in and she push me back and run off. I want to chase her but due to my current status, the nurse and other hospital staffs stop me from chasing her. After that day, she didn’t come to visit me at all, but when I went to garden for a walk, I feel got someone watching me from a far place. However I feel this feeling is very familiar, whenever I looked back, the feeling is gone.
Until the day that I finally full cure from the hurt, I saw she is waiting for me at the entrance of the hospital. I walk slowly to her as she also does the same. I start to ask her question.
“Are you the one who keep watching me from far place?”
“Yes…..”
“Why you don’t come to visit me directly?”
“I scare……”
“You scare about what?”
“I scare that day you just doing that to me without really love me.”
“You know the answer very well yourself; you just do not admit it”
“I know what…. I….”
I, without letting her to finish her sentence, have actually kissed her to show my very true feeling toward her. And she hug me back as the answer she gives me back which actually means she accept me.
After that day, we started our couple life; we try to get as happy as we can everyday since we cannot predict what will happen. As long we can make as much memory with each other, we are the happiest people in this world.
The END!!
2010年4月2日星期五
2010年1月9日星期六
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that i cannot be the one you picked.
I know that I cannot act as him to be with you. What can I do for you now is to pray hard for your happiness. Everytime I saw you with him, I will have a bit jealous but I still feel glad that you are happy. When I know about I not your destined one, I only able to choose to be the outsider between you and him.
I'm sorry that i unable to forget my love for you.
I know that i am selfish for keeping you in my heart without directly told you face to face. But my action already told you without my voice. I really sorry for making you suffer for unable to accept my feeling. Sometime i will feel sad for not able to be with you in a memorable picture. But still thank you for letting to create those picture for you without me beside.
I'm sorry for not able to protect you.
Since the one in your heart wasn't me, everytime you have problem, I will not be the first one to know even I want to. When you are hurted, I wasn't there to be with you. Even that I wasn't the one, but I still wish to protect you. If you told me stay away from you, I will but I still unable completely forget you.
I'm sorry for decide to forget my love.
Since my love will cause us to suffer, so I decide to forget my love for you. However I wasn't able to promise I able to 100% to perform so since you are more than everything for me.
Without you, I will not be complete.
By meeting you, I have growth.
For loving you, I know.
For forgeting you, I felt.
For everything, Thank you
I know that I cannot act as him to be with you. What can I do for you now is to pray hard for your happiness. Everytime I saw you with him, I will have a bit jealous but I still feel glad that you are happy. When I know about I not your destined one, I only able to choose to be the outsider between you and him.
I'm sorry that i unable to forget my love for you.
I know that i am selfish for keeping you in my heart without directly told you face to face. But my action already told you without my voice. I really sorry for making you suffer for unable to accept my feeling. Sometime i will feel sad for not able to be with you in a memorable picture. But still thank you for letting to create those picture for you without me beside.
I'm sorry for not able to protect you.
Since the one in your heart wasn't me, everytime you have problem, I will not be the first one to know even I want to. When you are hurted, I wasn't there to be with you. Even that I wasn't the one, but I still wish to protect you. If you told me stay away from you, I will but I still unable completely forget you.
I'm sorry for decide to forget my love.
Since my love will cause us to suffer, so I decide to forget my love for you. However I wasn't able to promise I able to 100% to perform so since you are more than everything for me.
Without you, I will not be complete.
By meeting you, I have growth.
For loving you, I know.
For forgeting you, I felt.
For everything, Thank you
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